Takemoto on grass

A Bdoing is a wonderful thing...

Because I'm the only one! :D

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[info]bdoing

For a day where my plans were 'play D&D all afternoon', this was actually a really good day as far as my daily checklist was concerned. Managed to knit, draw, write, and read. Came to a couple realizations today during my 750words, and oh man is that a good minddump thing. But now I know what my next plan is for writing!

 

Also, everything is Animorphs, all the time. My art has been Animorphs for a while, it's what I'm reading and considering writing fics for...

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[info]bdoing

Checking in )

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self, omgfacepic
[info]bdoing

Holding myself accountable! )

Also, I finally have a Kobo (eReader) again! mine died in November after only about a month, and I finally got it replaced. Looking forward to using it on transit!

 

Also also, D&D Next. anyone else on my flist doing the playtest? it looks interesting. Very 3.5ish, but with some elements of 4e as well, and some new stuff.</p>

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Ch-ch-changes!
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[info]bdoing
I've been trying to make some changes in my life, and I've decided that the big changes are going to be things that I'm going to do all at once, since I've read a few times that that's actually the more likely way to have things stick, instead of gradually introducing them.


- Really need to go to the doctor. Worried that what I thought was a pimple in my ear is actually an ear infection, my foot is still borked, and I've been having anxiety attacks/problems and wishing I had clonazepam again. And this time it'll be covered by my health care plan, so I can actually take it properly and not try to ration it out against my mental health. That wasn't fun.
- Going on a cash-based diet for food items. No credit card use for food unless it's having groceries delivered or pizza on Tuesdays for D&D. Not sure how much I'm going to set it per week/month yet - right now I'm trying for $50/week and seeing how that goes. My gut says it'll have to go up but I might be wrong.
- Going to try and meditate every night before bed. I used to do this but for some reason I've stopped in the last couple years and when I do it it really helps organize my mind before bed, which helps me sleep both more quickly and more soundly.
- On that note, I'm going to try to take more "me time". I've come up with a list of things I want to try to do for 15-30 minutes every day. (As many of them every day as I can, and each of them at least 3-4x/week.)

- Draw
- Play flute and/or oboe (and/or guitar?)
- Read
- Write
- Nap
- Walk
- Do yoga (sun salutation mostly)
- Do breathing exercises from yoga

The first four are the main ones and the original four I decided on, but the latter for are good as well. Today I have:
- Drawn [I'm doing a draw-every-day-for-thirty-days thing, ideally no one will see them ever]
- Played flute and oboe [And should do them in that order from now on probably because ow my face]
- Read through Animorphs #4 [and my eReader is getting here tomorrow so I'll be able to read more easily while on the bus and things!]
- Napped [or at least attempted to]
- Walked
- Done yoga
- Done breathing exercises [for the first time - I actually really like them, although holy slow breathing batman. That'll take some getting used to].

So basically I did everything but write (which... should probably be at the top of my list, ha... ha....].

Tomorrow! And tomorrow I don't even have to do all this around a bunch of travel, although I do need to do things before 6pm if I wanna do them while Mike's out of the house. I wanna do things like yoga as breaks from work, ideally, so that works out. :P

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Takemoto on grass
[info]bdoing
Blergh, AMA's postsecret post just kind of made me sad. Lots of depressed posts, lots of anonymous hatred, and not many happy cheery posts to balance it out. I guess that makes sense (because people are more likely to talk freely about being happy) but still, blargh.

[Also, just because I know that I was at least part of Flagg's last break from AMA: that post wasn't me. It's true, if largely because if I had the power he would have been permanently banned, but we've been intentionally avoiding each other and this arrangement works just fine for us both as far as I can tell.]

Also I really haven't paying attention to LJ at all, AMA or not, just so everyone knows. If there've been posts that I'd normally be commenting on and haven't, know that it's not because I suddenly hate you or anything, I just haven't been paying attention to LJ for various reasons.

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self, omgfacepic
[info]bdoing
Okay, so I haven't done a life dump in WAY TOO LONG and I am never sure how much of my life gets on Facebook/Twitter/Tumblr and how much of that any of you read and care about. So I'll do my best to go over what's happened in the past... what, month and a half or so? I don't think I've really posted much since getting back from Cameroon.

Oh jeez I've been writing this for almost two hours now and it's 1600 words or so, oops )

Also this almost 2000 words now, why can I not write like this in my fiction during non-NaNo season gaaaahhhhhh

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Takemoto on grass
[info]bdoing
I SUBMITTED TO AN AGENT

Realistically this means pretty much nothing probably in the long run because most of the time you get rejected dozens of times before finding someone to work with you but FIRST STEP IS COMPLETE

THIS IS ACTUALLY TERRIFYING FOR ME

EDIT:
TWO AGENTS NOW

THAT IS ALL BECAUSE THIS STRESS IS KILLING ME

THIS SHOULD NOT BE THIS STRESSFUL

EDIT TWO:
Also I changed the name to Grayscale from Shades of Gray because of that fucking 50 Shades of Grey novel :<

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self, omgfacepic
[info]bdoing

I am coming to properly realize that self-esteem and body image problems are not affected nearly as much by knowing that people genuinely find me attractive as I wish they were. I wouldn't say I hate myself (especially since my self-esteem issues are almost entirely tied into body image problems and I'm pretty awesome otherwise), but I really need to get to a point where mirrors don't make me angry at myself, preferably quickly.

 

ramble ramble ramble. Life is pretty awesome for the most part. Matthew is still wonderful, I'm slowly but surely paying down my debt and starting to actually act like an adult. I'm learning to detach from the internet when it's bringing me down. I'm conducting a choir next week and have loved working with them.

 

I'm still considering starting a choir largely from NaNo members, but I lack rehearsal and performance space. And I'd be worried that music majors would judge my conducting abilities. I dunno. I should look into the logistics, because it really does make me happy.

 

Also I'm thinking about recording a multitrack of For The Longest Time. I have the music and if I bumped it up a semitone or a tone I could comfortably sing it (original goes from low low E to high high B). I dunno. Maybe in a couple weeks when I don't need to worry about presentations and have sent out a query letter and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 

aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Yay, bandwagon!
Takemoto on grass
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I think everyone is curious about what others think of them. It's a natural curiosity and one that we rarely get to indulge in. So, let's indulge. Comment on this post with the three words that you think best describe me. They don't have to be complimentary. They don't have to be anything but honest. Post this in your journal and find out what three words others would use to describe you.

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Takemoto on grass
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Poll #1832792 Just because I really want to make sure that I'm not accidentally getting anything wrong...
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What is your preferred name and pronoun?


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